I've been married previously, I was with my ex since I was 17 and we got divorced 9 years later. We were separated for 2 years prior to the divorce. I can say I never thought I would get divorced, anyone who has gotten divorced probably never thought it would happen either. I did try to save my marriage but in the process I sacrificed who I was. I changed to try and make him happy, to try and save our marriage, but in the process I lost myself. I will never do that again. But I did try everything including counseling, but he didn't want to be there anymore and said so, I'm not making someone stay where they don't wanna be. It wasn't good for our kids or us, and yes we had 2 handsome little guys.
I really never thought I'd get married again after everything that happened in the past. But I did find someone. I met him at work, knew his family and we became good friends. He had a daughter from a past relationship,she is so beautiful and sweet. I wasn't looking for anything when we met, I was trying to make sure that me and my boys had what we needed and trying to make sure I was happy again with life , with me, kinda getting to know myself again. And I was loving it! When I was at home me and my kiddos played a lot, and jammed out to music, something we'd always loved doing but didn't do so much towards the end of the marriage. And we got dirty a lot!! It kinda felt like they were getting there childhood back at this point. There boys, there suppose to get dirty! Play in the rain, puddle jump, play in mud and grass!! We were having a blast! And then at work I was completely me! Out spoken, talkative, goofy me. Me and him became good friends, our kids played together. We had a lot in common with our pasts. We just clicked.
We've been together for 2 years and have a daughter together. Like I said not traditional. Hes been telling my family and me since about 3 weeks into our relationship that he was going to marry me one day, I always just laughed it off. He had started talking about marring me again shortly after we found out we were pregnant with our daughter, I told him again that I didn't know if I'd ever get married again and that we already had a lot on our plate with 3 kids already and another on the way, I said why don't you wait a year after our daughter is born to ask me again to make sure you still want to be there and that you have an out if you don't. He told me he wasn't going to just wait cause we had another kid coming, that he was going to continue to ask me over and over again till I decided I was I was ready, that it was my choice. It was talked about off and on forever and yes our daughter is over a year now. I honestly thought he was going to ask on Christmas, but he didn't and to be honest I was a little disappointed, and it kinda caught me off guard that I was disappointed the way I was. I felt mopey and down, and again this caught me off guard. I realized I was ready,I knew I was happy with him before this, but I was ready to be his. We'd been threw quite a bit, dealing with ex's, combining our family and adding to it. We've had our disagreements, arguments, ups and downs and were still together. I am back to me and he embraced all of me happily.
I didn't say anything to him about how I felt, but there was some stuff going on the next couple days and I guess I didn't catch it. He had been really quiet and jumpy. Well he came home on the 27th, said his hi's to all of us and then had the boys got to there room to make sure there chores were done. He walked them back there and was back there for a bit and came out, the boys stayed and cleaned. My sister had come over before he ever got home and we had been just sitting around talking while I was cooking dinner and the kiddos were playing. Well they boys came out and called me to come check their room, I was in the process of stepping over the baby gate when my oldest son pointed behind me and Stacy was down on one knee with a ring in his hand. It was so sweet and unexpected, caught me completely off guard and I started to cry. I of course said yes!! And was soooooo happy.
Turns out he had been talking to my family about asking asking me, he had asked my dad for permission, he had also talked to the boys and asked there permission to marry me and had them involved by calling me back to check there room so he could get in position. It was just sweet. My sister new too and was taking pictures and videoing it lol. It was awesome and made me so happy.
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